My Dad + My Pops= Me

My dad is real cool in my eyes because he can be like my big brother and my best friend all rolled into one person. He is someone who I can talk to about anything and not be judged for my mistakes. Yet when I am wrong, he is someone who will let me know that I am wrong and he will definitely put me in my place at the same time. We can hangout talk and have a few “cold ones” or our favorite drink Remy Martin VSOP. He is someone who I really look up to and I want to make him proud of me. I always wanted to be a dad just like him, but only better. Now I am not saying he is/was a bad dad, I always wanted to be like him, yet be my own man and teach my kids to be a better dad than me. My dad is the best dad and I love him and I want to thank him for always being apart of my life.

Now my pops is somewhat different than my dad. He is real cool, but he is so laid back that it seems as if nothing bothers him at all. He reminds me a lot like James Bond (007), but cooler. I can talk to him also, but his answers seem to come out in a smooth but stern tone like Barry White (RIP). He makes me think about my mistakes and how I can better myself as a dad and as a man also. My pops is funny as hell too and he can make you laugh and feel better at the same damn time regardless of the situation. This man has been there for me in my time of needs and I love him for anything and everything that he has done for me.

With these two dudes on my side, how can I loose?? Some people can’t say that they have two fathers, let alone one father. Well I am proud to say that I have two fathers and I will do everything within my power and make them both proud of me. Love you guys and thanks for everything.

Final Thought: My mom use to tell me when I was younger that my dad is my father (her ex-husband) and my pops (her husband) was my father too. Now back then I was confused, but as I got older I understood what she meant by that. I had the advantage of having two adult men to learn from and I should respect then both no matter what.  I wanted to post this on father’s day, but a lot has been going on (yeah I know I am bit late for father’s day right?). I just wanted to acknowledge these two gentleman and thank them from the bottom of my heart for everything that they have done for me. There was a time when I would complain to my dad about my pops when I was a kid. My dad told me that I better respect my pops or he (my dad) would beat my behind. Okay I tried to flip the script and complain to my pops about my dad. My pops told me that if I didn’t give my dad the respect that he deserves, he (my pops) would beat my behind. Damn that, that’s too many ass whippings for one kid to endure. Don’t you agree?? Thanks for reading…

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If This Heart Could Talk

If this heart could talk, it would tell you all about the joy and pain it has experience with this thing called life. If this heart could talk, it would tell you how many times it has been broken because of love lost and how some have stomped the trust right out of it. This heart would tell you how it has been lost and confused by love and how it feels to not be loved. This heart can tell you how it would love a woman and how it puts a great feeling when it comes to making sweet and passionate love to a woman. It would tell you what it means to be loved and how to love. This heart can tell you that it has cried a thousand times because someone broke it and how someone misused it just to save their own hide. If this heart could talk, it will tell you how someone called themselves breaking it gently and “sparing it feelings” which doesn’t make since. This heart will tell you how it thinks about the true meaning of love all the time and how it can’t wait to experience the joy it deserves. If this heart could talk, it would tell you what it really feels like to to be broken in two. This heart will also tell you how it feels to play the game and be played by the game when it comes to relationships, especially the one it wanted the most. If this heart could talk, it will tell you that because it was lost and confused, it caused one to break someone else heart and it feels like the pain that it is experiencing, is payback for all of the dumb s*** it has done in the past. This heart will also tell you that it is not perfect in any way, shape, or form. Believe it or not, this heart does talk everyday, but what it says seem to fall on one’s deaf ears at times. If this heart could talk, would anyone listen???

Final Thought: Some may say that the way to a man’s heart is through his stomach. Well I am not hungry, so why can’t someone find the right way to my heart without feeding me?? My heart is hungry for love and joy, not for steak and shrimp. Thanks for reading…

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A Crazy Ass Feeling

There is a feeling inside of me that I can’t stand and I can’t seem to get rid of. It is a feeling of uncertainty, a feeling of betrayal and a feeling of loneliness. Our relationship started out good and it seemed that it would last until the end of time. To me it felt like our relationship came right out of a fairy tale book. You came into my life at a point when I needed that special someone and I felt like you were that special someone who could fill a void in my life. We laughed together, we shared each others feelings and opinions, we made passionate love like no two people on earth could ever do. You made me feel like I was on top of the world and nothing and no one could touch me. I put my heart in your hands and I not only asked you, I begged you to handle it with extreme care. I talked about you to everyone within a hear shot, because I felt in my heart that you were my queen and you would love me forever. It was one of the best feelings in the world, so I thought. Now let me get back to explaining this crazy ass feeling that I am experiencing inside of me. I feel like pure s*** and it feelings like you took my heart in your hands and slammed it to the ground and stomp the love right out of it. You started talking to me in a disrespectful tone. I felt like you were looking for a easy way out of the relationship just so you could go out and “do you”. It made me wonder if you gave a damn about my feelings, hell I even wonder if you think about me or care if I am still living. Because of this crazy ass feeling, its hard for me to see a car like yours, listen to your favorite song or even go to some of the places we use to go…. DAMN IT WHY AM I FEELING THIS WAY?? THIS FEELING NEEDS TO GO AWAY!! IT HURTS TO THINK ABOUT YOU AND IT HURTS TO BREATH.. MAN THIS FEELING IS NOT GOOD AT ALL. DAMN MY STOMACH HURTS AND MY MIND HURTS AND MY SOUL HURTS. WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME?? I AM TRYING TO TELL MYSELF TO JUST LET IT GO AND MOVE ON, BUT IT’S SO F***ING  HARD TO DO. I KNOW THAT I AM NOT P**** WHIPPED AND I DON’T HAVE ANY BAD INTENTIONS TOWARDS YOU. IT’S JUST THAT THIS CRAZY ASS FEELING IS TERRIBLE. PAIN PAIN GO AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK INTO MY HEART EVER AGAIN. Oh well let me calm down and stop being in my feelings and start living again. Yeah yeah I think that would be the best thing to do, hell I might just move on to the next one like you did. You made it real hard for the next female, but hey its worth a try. So let me end this with these closing words as day turns into night one way or another I will be alright. So peace out!!!

Final Thought: This is a feeling that can make you seem like you’re going crazy and about to lose your mind. It’s a feeling that no one should ever have to experience in life. But you know what? Time can heal pain and pain doesn’t last forever. Thanks for reading…

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The First Encounter

When I first saw you, I said to myself “damn she’s fine, but there is something very special and unique about her” and I wanted to make you mine right then and there. I knew that it would take time to get to that point and I was ready, welling and able to go through the very special process. I knew I had to say something to get your attention even though we had other people around us. I was so scared and nervous that it was hard for me to put my words together just to say hello believe it or not. I was worried that you might look at me funny and tell me to step the hell off and get a life or you would tell me that you were involved with someone. Well after manning up I said “hello” and you responded with “hello and how are you doing”. I asked you if you were seeing anyone and you said no you were not, and I said to myself “that’s good damn good”. Me being me I said something silly to make you smile and when you did, my heart skipped a beat. Your smile and your voice sent chills up and down my spine. I knew at that moment you were a beautiful person not only on the outside, but on the inside as well. To be honest, I didn’t believe in love at first sight. Now I can say that after our first encounter, you have made a believer out of me. There are times when I wish I could turn back the hands of time and relive the first time I saw you over and over again. All I can do now is cherish that special moment and keep it in my heart forever and for always. So when ever I am having a rough day, I just sit and smile because I always re-visit the first encounter with someone as lovely as you.

Final Thought: I truly believe that it is possible to be attracted to someone not because of their looks or their physical features and fall head over heels for them at the drop of a dime. There is a special power or force that can draw two people together and make their first encounter seem to last forever. The first encounter is the best encounter to the start of a strong loving relationship. Thanks for reading…

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My Mother The Super Hero

To me my mother is a real super hero with special powers that are out of this world. She is stronger than anyone that I know on this planet and she displays her strength all the time. Her strength comes from within and she has the power to be strong when no one else can. My mom has great healing power also. When I was sick, she stuck right by my side and nursed me back to good health. She has x-ray vision and she can see into the root of whatever problems that I have. My mother has psychic powers too. I know for sure because she can read my mind and tell me what I am thinking about. My mom has something I like to call “the power of strong suggestion”. She will always say “I am not telling you what to do, but I strongly suggest you do this” and I wind up following her suggestion 95 % of the time. Now her weakness is simple, she gets tired like anyone else because she is only human. My mother may not be able to save the whole world, she may not be faster than a speeding bullet, but in my eyes and in my heart she will always be my super hero. Now that is a real mother for you.

Thank you mom for carrying me in your belly for the months before I was born.

Thank you mom for being in labor for all of those hours.

Thank you mom for giving birth to me.

Thank you mom for taking care of me while I was a child.

Thank you mom for teaching me what’s right from wrong.

Thank you mom for loving me all of these years.

Thank you mom for not giving up on me.

Thank you mom for your courage.

Thank you mom for all of your love and support.

Basically I want to say thank you mom for everything and I love you with all of my heart.


Final Thought: I would like to say happy mother’s day to all of the mothers around the world. I wish you joy and happiness. Enjoy your day ladies, you all deserve it. Thanks for reading…

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I Want You

Alright now I need you to listen up and listen to me very closely. If you are someone who knows how to treat a man, if you are someone who knows how to love a man, and if you are someone who knows how to take care of a man’s heart then I want you. I want to take the time to get to know you as a person and as a woman. You must be able to receive love, you must be able to give love, and you must know what love is between a man and a woman. I want your mind, body and your soul. I want you and I want all of you. There is no half stepping about it, either you are willing to accept this journey or not. This not a want ad, this is somewhat of a challenge, meaning we don’t live in a perfect world and there may be some hurdles that you must be willing to overcome in life. I am by no means perfect and I do have my off days, but you must realize I am only human. Please don’t take me for a joke, I am being very serious. If you are taking me as a joke, then stop reading and step off. I want a woman not a little girl. If you are the one, please remember this; I DON’T WANT YOU FOR A DAY, I DON’T WANT YOU FOR A NIGHT, I DON’T WANT YOU FOR A WEEKEND, I DON’T WANT YOU FOR ALWAYS. I WANT YOU FOREVER!!!

Final Thought: There are times when you can want to be with someone in a very special way, yet they want to be with you in a different way. For example, there was a woman I was dating and she was very interested in me and I was very interested in her. She asked me what did I see in her and I told her. I asked her what did she see in me and she told me. She told me that she wanted me and I said that I wanted her. I also broke down the way that I wanted as I stated above. She said that she didn’t want me because there were to many requirements and she didn’t think that she could meet all of them. She wanted me to be a friend with benefits and that’s it. Ain’t that some s***!!! Thanks for reading…

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But Why

I said that we were a couple and you said that we were a couple too, but you didn’t want to hold hands in public

I showed you affection all the time and you showed me affection too, but you only showed affection when you felt like it

I wanted to trust you with my heart and you said that you would not brake it, but somehow you wind up braking it anyway

I always made sweet and passionate love to you and you climaxed uncontrollably, but now you won’t experience that

I believed that we were in a strong loving relationship and you agreed, but when you went out you claimed to be single

I wanted you in my life and you told me that you wanted me in your life, but you never wanted to talk about the future

I enjoyed the time that we spent together and you said you enjoyed our time together, but I barley saw you

I enjoyed the conversations that we had and you said our conversations were good, but now I can’t get a hold of you

I told you that I loved you and you say that you loved me too, but  your actions were saying something totally different

I said we would be together forever no matter what and you said you felt the same, but we are not together anymore

Every discussion that we had and I pointed out the problems in our relationship, you seemed to come up with every damn excuse under the sun to cover yourself. I keep telling myself that I am done with the relationship and others tell me to leave you alone for good, yet in my heart I still want to be with you… BUT WHY???

Final Thought: There’s always that “one” who everyone tells you that you need to leave them alone, and you know that they are tell you the truth. Yet you still feel the love for that person and your heart tells you something totally different, but why??? Thanks for reading…

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