I Can’t Sleep

I can’t seem to relax enough to get a good nights sleep

The mere thought of not having you in my life makes me weep

It feels as if the is no chance to have any inner peace

I wish the war of pain that is within my heart would cease

I had hoped that you would be the love of my life

But you turned on me and it feels as if you stabbed me with a knife

Some may say good night and sweet dreams

That’s never the case for me because all I can hear is my heart painful screams

Sometimes I am scared to go to sleep and wake up

Knowing that you will be the one on my mind and my morning will be rough

My friends tell me that I have insomnia and that’s all

I told them that it feels like my mind and my feelings are having a all out brawl

Man I feel so low and restless

I don’t know it feels like I am under a lot of stress

While I am a wake I want to experience the feeling of true love

I don’t want to go to sleep and dream like a drunken dove

Now I am walking around with my eyes all puffy looking like a creep

All because I don’t have you and I can’t go to sleep

Final Thought: We all deserve a good nights sleep every night so that we can function properly the next day. After a brake up, it seems as if we can’t get the proper rest that we all deserve. Speaking from experience, I know how hard it is to get a good nights sleep. Hell I have been up for hours!!! Thanks for reading…

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1 Man 2 Hearts

I am only one man, but it feels like I have two hearts

They beat as one, but their feelings are different and the conversation never stops

Heart 1 says that love can conquer all no matter what

Let love flow and ignore that strange feeling in your gut

I will retain love and happiness inside of me for a long while

I will make sure that you are happy and be able to maintain a joyful smile

Heart 1 says that special someone I and will love and be together

It said that special someone and I will stay in love and it will last forever

Heart 1 said that when her and I make love to put my all into it

To make sure she feels all of me and calm her spirit

Heart 1 says to love her and treat her like a queen

Make sure to love her and respect her to the fullest and leave nothing in between

Heart 1 says to love her mind, body, and soul

Do all of this and we will achieve the ultimate goal

Heart 2 says that love did not conquer all

Look how love hurt you and now you feel very small

Heart 2 says look how happiness and love let you down

Now that smile is nothing more than a heartache turned into a frown

Heart 2 says that when it comes to love there is no such thing as being together forever

That is love way of giving you false hope, now isn’t that clever

Heart 2 said remember when it was said to put your all into it while making love

That did not work and now it seemed like it was only sex, what were you thinking of

Heart 2 says it was said to treat her like a queen and leave nothing in between

You did that and it got you nowhere do you see what I mean

Heart 2 said that Heart 1 said do all of those things and achieve the ultimate goal

All of that was done, but you are hurting and it might be time for us to become cold

Heart 2 said see I told you that this thing called love is not your type

Feeling loved and being in love is nothing but a bunch of hype

Heart 2 says there is no such thing as joy, there is only pain

It is almost like no sunshine only clouds and a lot of rain

Now I am starting to think that there is no feeling of love or joy

It feels like it is just something to distract me from life, you know like a decoy

Final Thought: There is one man with two hearts who have different feelings within. Now after doing all the right things and still getting hurt and coming up with the “short end of the stick” what heart makes more sense to listen to. Heart 1 or Heart 2??? Thanks for reading…

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At the start of a relationship, no one knows if love will prevail or if love will come into the relationship at all. When we are in a relationship, being loved and being in love with someone can feel so wonderful. Love can make you feel great, love can make you experience the great joy that life has to offer. Love can make you pay attention to that special someone more than you can ever imagine. Everything is great in the relationship when things are good with the expectation that things will last forever and always. Speaking for myself, I know how it feels to be in love and how it feels not to be loved. Trying to learn from past experiences and from past relationships, can be very tiresome, but I have to be willing to learn and make changes within myself and not fall for the dumb s*** from the past right?? There have been times when a relationship ended and it was totally my fault (hey I wasn’t perfect, never have been never will be I am only human). There have been times when I know for a fact I was really in love and I did nothing wrong in the relationship. Once the relationship ended do you know what happened? It felt like love came along and knocked me the f*** out. We may get to the point where we don’t care and we want to let love go for good. But no, we meet someone else and that great feeling starts all over again. If it is not meant to be, love comes along and kicks our ass again and again and again until we get it right or until love feels like it wants to stick around for a very long time. Love is nothing to play around with when it comes to dealing with the heart and feelings of another person. Hey it takes a fool to play with love and not to expect to experience consequences and repercussions from their negative actions. The great R & B singer Teddy P (RIP) said it best “Looks Like Another Love TKO” man he was right.

Final Thought: When the relationship ends and the love is gone it can feel like nothing else matters in this world. No one wants to keep getting knocked down and knocked out by love. It can be hard to get up from and that s*** starts to hurt over a period of time. Well I guess we have to keep trying until we win. Or do we??? Thanks for reading…

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Love Me

Love me in a way that makes my heart skip a beat

Love me in a way that makes your kisses taste ever so sweet

Love me in a way to the point that I will feel no shame

Love me in a way that while making love I will shout out your name

Love me in a way like you could love no other

Love me in a way that defines forever

Love me in a way that makes me feel fine

Love me in a way that always puts me on cloud nine

Love me in a way like you never did before

Love me in a way that touches my soul down to its core

Love me in a way that will make me feel like a king

Love me in a way that will make the angels sing

Love me in a way that will be better than okay

Love me in a way that is special and tell me that you will stay

Love me in a way that does not consist of lust

Love me in a way that will gain my trust

What I am asking you to do is easier than counting one two three

All I am asking you to do is simply LOVE ME!!!

Final Thought: All of this is easier said than done, but anything is possible if one is willing to put forth the effort. Thanks for reading…

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