I Thought We Were Cool

There was a time when I thought we were on the same page when it came to certain things in life. I know that you’re a woman and I am a man and we had feelings for one another in the past, and I thought we were cool. We both decided to not pursue a relationship because we valued our friendship. Yes I flirted with and you flirted with me, but I let it be known that we both need to keep it on a friend/family like level and you agreed. Now all of that seemed to change because of you and your mouth. I told you things that I wouldn’t/couldn’t share with anyone else. I shared feelings with you and even shed tears in front of you and with you. There were many conversations that I had with you and only you and I asked you not to share them with anyone else. But nooo you decided to go and run your mouth and put my business on what I called “the hen party website”. You went and told other females that the only reason that I talked to you or called you was because I had a near death experience. Hell, you even said that all I wanted was some ”pity p***y”. Are you f***ing serious??  Listen, before I want any of your p***y, I will have bi-sexual relations. Meaning the only time that I will have sex, it will be by my damn self. Now there’s no love for you from me and I am pretty sure that you have no love for me. I thought we were cool, I guess I was wrong.

Final Thought: I think that it’s hard, but not impossible for a male and a female to be just friends and keep feelings and lust out of the friendship. This particular young lady was like family to me and she basically ruined what we had all because she wanted to have some things to talk about. It was later revealed to me that she wanted more than a friendship, but not a relationship. Hey I was confused and didn’t understand what that meant at first. Let’s just say she wanted us to “hook up” every now and then without putting feelings into “doing the grown up”. I guess she wanted me to give her some “pity d”, nah that’s okay I passed on that. Thanks for reading…

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A Place In My Mind

There’s a place in my mind

And it’s really not that hard to find

It’s a place that never gets cold

It’s a place where true love overflows

It’s a place that no one can see

It’s a place that means so much to me

It’s a place where I feel so free

It’s a place where I need to be

It’s a place where we can love and care

It’s a place where we can share

So come with me my love to this place that is one of a kind

To a special place in my mind

Final Thought: There are times when we all need to escape reality and go to that “special place” in our minds. Some may call it “daydreaming” but I like to refer to it as a way of relaxing and taking a mental journey. Life can bring all sorts of stuff our way; whether its good or bad; whether it makes us happy or sad. I believe that we all need to go to a special place in our minds every now and then. The stress of being in a relationship or trying to recover from a broken heart, can make one want to go to a special place in their mind. For example, if you’re in a stressful relationship and you need to release some anger, would you want to (1) get physical with the other person and get in all kinds of trouble, (2) punch a hole in the wall get hurt and have to dish out money for repairs and doctor visits, or (3) go to that special place in your mind and relax. Hell I am picking #3 because there’s no need to get physical and I will be damn if I am going to mess up my home and do harm to myself because someone else wants to argue and get of my nerves. I would pick #3 again to recover from a broken heart. No need to stress and stop living life. So find that special place in your mind, go to it and relax. You may feel better and have a better outlook on things, once you return to reality. Thanks for reading..

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A Mental Orgasm vs A Sexual Orgasm

A mental orgasm can happen at anytime while you’re talking to someone of the opposite sex for hours about anything and everything. I would love to talk to a female about things such as sports, politics, weather, relationships, world issues, and be able to feel like she knows what she is talking about. Just sitting and talking about those things, would mean a lot to me. I could sit and talk to a female for hours and before I know it, my brain explodes with a climax of information and intellect. My brain wants more of this female’s words and insight. Now there have been some females (and please notice that I said SOME females) that I have dated, that seemed as if their common sense was shot to sh**, but their mental state was on point. It was a turn on and a let down at the same time; damn..

A sexual orgasm happens when two people are making sweet and passionate love to the point where they can get lost in each others soul. While making love to a beautiful woman, I want to give her my all and make her body shake all over with uncontrollable pleasure. This feeling will make her want more and I would make damn sure she can experience that ultimate orgasm over and over again. Now if I am giving  all of this pleasure to a woman, I want the same in return. I want her to make me feel as if I am the only person that matters to her during this special time. Hell if the love making is that good and she can make me reach that ultimate “pleasure peak”, she can go and max the credit card out…lol.. Now here’s a question, which one do you want and why??

Final Thought: For me, I have always seem to get one and not the other when it comes to experiencing the mental aspect and the sexual aspect of a orgasm. I know that a woman can have a sexual orgasm and a man can’t, but reaching that goal of exploding with passion, is in the best interest of both parties. A man can have a mental orgasm just as a female can have one, but does it feel the same or does it feel different? Who knows and who cares, I just want to have both at the same damn time. Thanks for reading..

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A Plan Gone A Stray

Here’s the plan

You’ll be my girl and I’ll be your man

Me loving you and you loving me

Just imagine how perfect our life would be

Making you happy would be one of my goals in life

Just think our love could cut the feeling of hate in two like a sharp knife

But then some plans do fall apart

Now it seems that I am alone in the dark

Without you I may as well have no fame or wealth

So now I look in the mirror and cry to myself

My plan was for us to be togethger

But you made damn sure that it wouldn’t be forever

There’s really nothing more that I can say

It’s just another example of a plan gone a stray

Final Thought: Its been said that you should always plan ahead for certain things like trips, parties, reunions, etc. My question is, does the same apply to a relationship? I thought it did concerning a relationship that I was in with who I thought was a great woman. It became clear that she had another plan of her own. My plan was for us to be together forever in a strong and loving relationship. Her plan was for us to be together also, but she wanted to have her cake and eat it too. Just goes to show that you can make a plan in the present, but you damn sure can’t predict the future. Thanks for reading…

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My Day Face, My Night Face

During the day I make sure to display what I call “my day face.” This face will show everyone that I am smiling, laughing, and having a great sense of humor. It may seem to others that everything in my life is going great and I don’t have a worry in the world. No matter what happens during the day, that day face shows nothing but joy and happiness, because of the loving relationship that we have together. When someone ask about you and I, I can’t stop talking about you and I damn sure can’t stop blushing. I don’t want everyone in our business, so I let them think that everything is okay between us.  I look at the clock and I notice that time is winding down, I look to the sky and I notice that the sunlight is fading fast. Damn it, day turns into night and now it’s time to display “my night face” and this is when the truth comes out. At night my smile goes away and the look of disappointment shows on my face, not to mention the feelings of emptiness and abandonment coming into play. My heart begins to feel the pain and disappointment of a loving relationship that once was strong and true. I don’t want to look in the mirror at night, because I don’t want to see the pain, I don’t want to see the tears running down my cheeks. I lay in the bed stirring into darkness and wondering when will this pain go away. My mind starts to think of you, my mind thinks of the warm embrace that we shared, my mind thinks of the passionate love making we shared, my mind thinks of the sweet and tender kisses we shared. My eyes are closed yet I can still see your face, I can still hear your voice. I am trying to block all of the pain out and it’s not working. S*** when will it end, when will it stop. Wait is that the alarm clock going off?? Yes it is, time to get up. I go into the bathroom and look in the mirror knowing that it’s the start of a new day. Now that’s the face that everyone will see during the day, but the night is just around the corner and I have to go through it all over again; damn.

Final Thought: It’s may be easy for some to put on a front to look as if they’re doing okay and that there is nothing wrong them. When it comes to relationships it’s tricky, but not impossible to do. No one wants people all on their business when things goes bad, and no ones wants to hear any type of advice on how to deal with a broken heart. Trust me I know. Thanks for reading…

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(M.Bowlding/copyright/3-17-15)

Nana Forever

My nana meant the world to me

Her smile would make my worries be gone and set free

Her voice was soft and ever so sweet

She spoke words of wisdom that were a real treat

When I wanted to sit in front the television all day and watch it

She would cut it off so that we could play a game called “here comes the hatchet”

She went out of her way to make sure I was a well behaved young man

She reminded me that if I acted up my face would meet the back of her hand

If my mother said no and put it to rest

My nana would say yes, and she knows best

She’s in a place where there is no phone

She’s in a better place because the Lord called her home

I miss her each and every single day

Especially every year on March 8th, which is her birthday

Thank you for putting our family together

I miss and love you Nana forever

Final Thought: My grandmother or “Nana” (my cousins and I called her that) was a very special woman in my life. She was strong, stern, soft spoken and she had a big heart. She was always willing to help others in a time of need. It didn’t matter to her if they were family or not, she was always there to offer a helping hand. I think that I inherited that trait from her, because I am the same way at times. She passed on many years ago suffering from Alzheimer’s Disease. She was well loved and well respected by her family and friends. I love her and miss her so much. Thanks for reading…

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